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I think I worked too much this week…

Mood of the moment: t-i-r-e-d

Just went through a major change at work last week…and am still trying to settle all the moving dusts while scrambling to figure out what I am supposed to do now.  Accomplishment so far: definitely not off to a good start.  Changes create imbalances and imbalances cause uncertainties…I guess I do hate changes.

Mood of the moment: Missing Korean movies nite-long, night walks around the neighborhood-lazy afternoons at the library-driving around in the little red car-taro (powder please!) milk tea with boba-20 yoplait yogurts for $5-dim sum brunches-sitting around at the beach-5HWV637 (thanks Benz)-long saturday nites at the movies-"do you want to get some dinner tonite" text messages-ice cream in bed-wide, empty freeways-kinda mood.

Mood of the moment: Heartbroken

There is this guy…and a couple of weeks ago, I prayed to God to please let me have a specific moment with him.  Considering the occassion at that time, I didn’t think it was possible…but I asked for the moment anyway…and I got it!!

Wow, I mean this must be a "go" sign from God…but so I thought.  After that incident, I prayed again…this time, I pray if he’s the best, then please God, show me some signs and let us be together.  And yes, life has a funny way sneaking up on you (directly quoted from Alanis Morisette).  A few days ago, my competitor made a bold move…which followed by little flirtations, that culminated today.

My initial reaction was anger…angry with the situation, of why it has to be her, why I didn’t see this coming.  But then, I realized that there were already little hints along the way, indications that we were not a perfect match.  To solidify the matter, the one thing that should bond us further were taken from us….I guess I was the blind mice, I only chose to see what I wanted to see. 

So yep, I guess I have the answer to my prayer.  But I’m still entitled to have a gloomy moment, right?

Hence, my mood of the moment: heartbroken =(