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The end of the year 2008 is near…and what has 2008 brought me?

It was the year that started in the high of highs and ended in the low of lows…the bottom was not pretty, the wound was almost unbearable, and the pain heals slowly with time.

It was the year of holding on and letting go…and the year of trying to maintain pride and dignity. 

It was the year of memories…and picking up what are left from them…because as one friend put it, it is like stepping onto colorful stained glass…they hurt because the sharp pieces cut your feet…yet they are still beautiful when you pick them up.

It was the year of losing a friend…and disappointing a friend.

It was the year where I came down hard, back to the earth…the year where I was again reminded that nothing lasts forever…and words are never meant to serve as bonds.

It was the year that I realize that in the end you only have yourself to rely on…and you can never trust someone fully.

It was the year where high expectations will never be fulfilled…and you can’t always get what you want.

It was a year full of hopes, temptations, fears, apologies, and tears.

Was 2008 that bad of a year?

Every cloud has its silver lining…and as each storm cleared, I learned to be thankful…thankful for everything: families, friends, job, health, and, most of all, life…and in the end, I learn to be humble.

So what are my hopes for 2009?

Nothing…because sometimes we just need to clear our heads, close our eyes and dive directly into the uncharted water, accompanied with faith only.

Happy New Year 2009, everyone.  Let’s roll!

“I fell asleep crying but I woke up lighthearted because I found flicker of hope’s still there.  Then I know the faith in love has kept me strong.  Believe in God & miracle, Sis”

(from the girl who can’t be moved, who has accompanied me during so many tears)